Last night I got home, smiling. (?!)
Except my day was, I woke up, got ready went to Kadens. After a while of just hanging out & talking he asked why I went over & I said, “to check on you & see how you’re doing” then he said ” well I don’t know why you came if you just came to be a bitch. You know I’m in a bad shitty mood & feel bad & shitty & you’re being a bitch because I don’t feel like talking.” so I got upset, grabbed my stuff, said “fine I’ll go be a bitch somewhere else” & left. Then he text me that he “Lily I didn’t mean to be rude I’m just depressed about a lot of different suit… I’m sorry ” & 4 messages describing what was wrong & why he was depressed. it feels like before, like I’m begging someone to talk to me. Like I have to fix them because they’re lives suck. It feels like Angel. & cris. & I hate that shit Wth!?
So I left, went over to Chads house after almost a year of making plans & flaking. We smoked & watched Project X, bought beer & hookah, watched Safe House, smoked hookah then I left To pick Dan up. Got him from sunset station, picked food up from Checkers, went to his house watched The Hangover. Picked Monica up from her parents, went to her house, smoked, talked, a lot! Picked wine up, watched Glee, came home, knocked out. Good night. 😄
