Fathers day 2012, went to M’s house after dinner @ my house to eat his moms homemade sauce. It was delicious. Then we hung out, his friends Aubrey& Andy went over, we drank, jumped in the pool, after they left mike & I went for a walk, around his block, naked. 100% completely naked 😳 then we went on his swing, I sat on him, he wasn’t hard, I got off then he said “I have to talk to you because drunk is the only way I have the balls to” said he didn’t want to hurt me & he felt like he would, I told him I didn’t want a freaking relationship, so he had to stop feeling guilty. Then he said he wanted to fix his life & find his wife. Not sure if I’m a possibility. He said I was #1 out of 3027. & that I’m the dream girl, but he’s not looking to get married, ugh me neither (?) then he said he just wanted to be happy. & he’s happy making me happy. But he has ADD & what if after someone else caught his attention & he wanted to make them happy. Then what about us, he didn’t want to hurt me. & we went over the same convo & scenarios 507 times & went from outside to inside. In his room I asked him how he was so sure I wasn’t the one. & he said he didn’t feel it the only person he came close to feeling it with was leeza. But Wth how Is he supposed to feel it if we don’t try? & regardless, I don’t wanna try, im not looking for a boyfriend nevertheless a husband!! & I told him he didn’t appreciate how awesome of a wife I would be & he said I was right, he didn’t. Thn I told him, un I don’t wanna be your wife so Wth. So it ended with, seeing eachother. & ending it when & if we find someone else. & there was no need to let eachother know everything except if we have sex with someone else Cus since we’re havig sex it’s kinda gross. & he said “I would never do that to you” then we had amazing sex. 69. I actually Did it. & actually succeeded I think. We fell asleep, woke up then I said again I know you’re gonna hate me but I gotta know what you want & he was all flustered & said “our friendship.” & I said ok & walked away & left.
