Moved out the last weekend of Oct :) got fired January 2cnd 2013. Happy forking New year!!!
My truck got totaled :( 2 Saturdays ago. Mony was driving.
Today I threw he biggest bitch fit because they bought turkey ham instead of turkey…. I’m never getting married…..
Thursday spent the night. Hey Arnold’. for the first time.again.
Putting it out there
Michael will call.
You could give it all away, give it all and be unstoppable All away, everything...– Jason Mraz.
Who will be there when she leaves. Who will hug you when she’s gone. Who will ask to hang out please. Who will you pull along. How can you pretend I don’t exist. How can you let her push me off. How do I end up on the shit list. How do I accept I have lost. Where did the friendship go. Where are the hugs. Where did ffd
Yesterday didn’t go out except to eat cheese at monys & watch a movie.
Played gold with briceida, she came over after work, she bought beer I made her Mac & cheese we smoked hookah, ate, drank, then watched a movie, she asked if we could cuddle, we did, we went on my roof, to see the sunrise, it took forever so we came back to the living room, I smoked, she kissed me, we made out, then I told her I felt bad Cus of M. So we went to ely’s room to sleep, she...
Went to Nikki’s had a blast, spent the night at M’s. Had bfast with jake& Niki, m invited me to visit his dad in California for 4 days.. Watched a movie, came home got ready went golfing with Briceida, now home :)
Yesterday went to brunch with m & two other couples. We all went back to his house, swam, they left m & I went to rent 300& Casa de mi padre. We watched 300, his parents bought us food from Naga, we then went to watch savages, then bought some run went to his house, drank, I smoked with Jacob, watched the Casa de mi padre movie. Very very ridiculous, then started makin out, went to...
Was awesome!! Thursday got there like @ 3pm, hung out said hi to family, ate A HOTDOG WITH BACON, rosy made us crepes, the next day she made us breakfast, we headed out to puerto peñasco, rocky point, we hung out with Fran and Amelia, fran took is on like a tour, but we got his pickup truck atuck in the sand, it took us forever to get it out bought a drink called Mario something. That shiiiiiii...
Went to six flags all day, with my nina, ely, the twins & julian, drove home from California, bought dad birthday cake & card with the girls. Now waiting. To go on a trip. 8 hours to Mexico. Yaaaay
Went to the beach today. It was awesome. Had an embarrassingly great lady problem tonight… So, I start my period this morning. Right before going to the beach. Greaaaaat. So I buy tampons. Stick one in & go swim/body boarding, which by the way was fantastic!! A couple hours later, 6, we get home & I can’t find my tampon. I freak out, call my Nina more into the room & ask...
I made the spaghetti sauce with actual meatballs so you could have some sauce...– Nina more!
Been in California Saturday -Sunday. Then got home at like 5pm, drove back to California at 6 am, got here at 9, staying till Thursday. Awesome awesome awesome 😃
Perfectly private. I love being private. I love talking to myself. & figuring out what I want. Not working an office job, having time to melt crayons. & bake puff pastries. & go on vacations. & smoke. & drink. & spend time with family. & go to the gym. & be pretty. & be happy :) yay
Had a good day today :) went to an interview in the morning, then met up with jake for lunch @ Lemongrass & port of subs. Then bought Chapstick. & a pipe. & smelly proof bag. & then I came home. Ate dinner with dad, watched part of a movie. He left to fix the cars, moms battery wouldn’t start, his gas was leaking, I left to pick up from Nikki. Lots of free cheese!! Smoked,...
You’re the best. You’re an amazing listener. Your advice can change lives. Your smile is breath taking. Your laughter is music to my ears. Your hugs are like a piece of heaven. Your presence makes life easier. The world is complete with you in it. You’re the only one I feel comfortable talking about One Direction with
I actually feel okay :)
I cried two nights ago. & now I’m crying again. This is the universe. Talkin.
That stupid quote about “”don’t make someone a priority when you’re just their option.” it’s crap. The realest stupidest crap ever. !!
I told him I needed to see him today. I told him I needed to. He was finishing up his friends hmwk. I told him to tell me when it was finished. & 2 hrs later, nothing. I think that’s enough.
4th of July, 2012. Had breakfast/lunch with my dad @ Olive Garden. then went to watch the AMAZING spiderman, i have THE BIGGEST CRUSH on Spiderman. then went over to mikes. drank, fireworks, got drunk with his mom. she kept wanting to take shots with us, finally at around 1,2 we all went to bed, Mike & i agreed to stop hooking up, then had amazing sex & awesome makeout sesh’s. Cris...
I think one of my biggest problems is keeping feelings inside.
Got drunk Wednesday, with Mony & Edgar. Saw a couple high school people, it actually wasn’t bad, Thursday took Almz to a water park. Two lesbians asked me for my #. Then first day of training @work, then I went out with Jake, we went to eat @ southpoint then watched Ted. It was funny, there was a couple references I didn’t get but it’s all good. He knocked on my door when r...
Today I cried. Like I haven’t in a while. M, I like you but, I’m moving on. I’ll be in your shadows, finding my light. Career, I don’t know what to do with you. But I will. I need a game plan. I’m okay, I’m just not content. Which could be good, if only I knew what I wanted.
I got a job! :) & he did call, I spent all night convincing myself that he wouldn’t. & he did. Then he asked me to go over. & I didn’t. & he called to ask if I got lost. Then I went over. & we did it. & he didn’t finish. But it was still ok. Then I went to my interview, got the job, will start training for a MANAGEMENT Position, then wet back over with...
Laying in bed I received a call from a very drunk M asking me to go over to Noah’s. After finally 20 min I decided to go. Kept kissing me, being cute, drunk, then I told him he only talked to me when he was drunk & he kept saying no no. He kept trying to kiss, & man was I good. I would kiss him just enough. But never went out of my way, I made him try. & try he did. But the whole...
I said it. I said I was done. For the first time. Okay so no calling him. No texting him. No visiting him. When he contacts me if I’m available I’ll answer. No ditching absolutely anyone else for him. Just chill. In the shadows.
You are a terrible friend. You could atleast not promise. You could atleast say no. Instead of avoiding, ignoring. But then you say you want me there forever. & that he wouldn’t take anyone else out to a fancy dinner other than me. & that I’m beautiful. & that I’m etc whatever. But, he still promises to text me sober & doesn’t. Promise to call me the next...
“No matter how hard a thing is hurting us, sometimes letting it go hurts even worse” June 20th 2012 I wrote this. It’s bullshit. If it hurts. You grow balls & move on. I helped m move on now I gotta take my own advise & grow some fucking balls. Gym. Tomorrow!!!! Morning. Don’t miss it!